Chin Soon

Its the 4th week since emt started already, been through some stuff..like being platoon ic to begin with..then course ic..=.= everyday taking critics from my boss lol.. she's cool though she always rushes me to gather all the platoons ic to hurry up -_-..

I began with hope of finding peace in my ns life, but it turned out the other way, now we've ended phase 1 and moving onto phase 2, the only thing i can think of is another turn out in mock 4.. or the rigourous leopard crawl with..hmm who sia, i hope is my bunk mates.. furthermore..with tmr's pam test coming up..i am totally not confident of passing this course liao..haix.. a person's life is at stake and i'm a medic..hw can i save lives? ask me take lives more easy la LOL *um chioing*

Met some great friends here too, i'm somewhat lucky la, my bunk mates are great men who came from some of the greatest units..awesome man, though sometimes i do bicker with them, show attitude, i totally apologize for that..sometimes i just contain my stress levels too greatly till they outburst all at once..like that day during night's out where i practically shunned chester..very sorry man..to matthew also, i totally displayed a craptacular feat of being so sensitive over small stuff..adding on to being an immature moron in front of my iv buddy mark...-_-, shit speaking of iv, i keep tripping lately, not being able to hit the direct spot..i totally placed kenneth into a very pain position cause i JUST ZHAM INTO HIS SKIN -.-...wa lau...why cant i just see the vein man?! ARGH.. and in situation where time is limited,,i will always fluster..its just the hidden anxiety which i cant control..my legs hands, whole body keep shaking as though i;m gg into elipsey..

Then, just came back from bo..its considered somewhat like confinement man..like wad our boss said if u wan sleep, let u sleep through the weekends..and dats exactly wad i did with my 3 buddies in the room..watching vasantham channel during depavali..LOL GRAJINI!!! its an awesome movie with twist of events man..everyone shd catch it :D bollywood POWER!.. xD

Then its shang zhi's birthday today! i received his letter on fri, only to read it on sun morning..hahaha he's kinda poor guy la, but i credit him cause he did complete his rp vocation course with lots of chiongsuaness, so he deserve to be cut some slack on ns..jia you man..after they ord u own liao ur rank keeps upping unlike mine! LOL one regret is i couldn't persuade u to join my team..it'd be great to have you on my team.. went k boxing wif him, xm and yu hui..hahah we went crazy la but fun always have to come to an end..i gotta book in..so had to leave early..sigh sorry my friends! :( guess for a greater future, i have to complete this course yeah? :| a verbosity of emotions..shit i think i used wrong word..rofl, mixture of many emotions.is just driving me nuts..

Anyways i find my socialising skills have deterioated badly sio.. i just sat there stunned..maybe im tired or wad..i cant crack lame jokes nor talk to xm just now..haix haix LOL jia lat le laaa :O as i'm typing this..it brings me back to wad my boss told me...ur outfit looks shitty today, and u look like a pregnant lady..wad the..i think i need chiong sua moderatelY(taking consideration of my badly injured heels) to maintain my body weight sio.. which also reminds me..wa lau..300 bucks for biometric leg..its for the betterment of my health and future i guess..flat foot..i need to overcome dat problem to jump higher and play better ball..for the team, not only the team, but for nus in future :D which i hope sk wld be gg dere too -_- who knows wad might happen in future? i think he'll prolly get in i guess but then there's the uncertain future ba..

I envy shang zhi, he has the gift of basketball iq and character that attracts everybody(OEI DUN UM CHIO WHEN U READ DIS LOL) him and shi kun are some of my buddies whom i truly respect and cherish and sometimes even look up to. The team matters have finally been settled..hope jerseys come in time..den we can start playing on sats on jammers league le..i'll confirm try my best to get ready for this competition..i'm nt gonna give up my dreams till its impossible to realise man..to be the greatest la hahahs. To all my uni friends out there! jia you!! i know its tough life.. but its all for the future! :D so..now here..i go again..gonna book in :(

ahhh medic course has finally started..=.= its called emt(emergency medical technician) a hardcore course den previous bmcs -_- the frequent knock it downs due to some ah hem ppl who kept moving in the file, and the cheeky smiles from our dear sgt -_- lessons are so boring, lectures..=.= practicals also so HOT -.- main thing is i got nothing in my mind despite shaking my head saying YEAH UNDERSTOODED -_-...understooded.LOL it was kinda UNPOSSIBLE -.- to fail the cpr test but i still did the impossible.. i failed it so many times..i practically killed 7 infants and barely saved 1..super emo =.= hw to save life..let me back into hqmc! AHHHHHHHH -.- shang so song..can 8-5 or rest 1 day sia la..=.= i'm now left with 10 weeks liao..and iv is tmr! -.- sian i forgotten everything liao jia lat -_-..lucky thing is iv can take up to half a day, so very song can slack le! :D stupid mo refuses to give me medicine or wad..instead sends me to physio..wa lau if i miss lessons jia lat le la..consperm fail the tests and stay back on sat..which i predict this is wad's gonna happen to me this coming sat -_- damn it..bandaging..and equipment tests..theory can tikum i guess..(A) we'll see hw? :D

man..tendinitis?!...my heels hurt like shit i cant run and cant jump =.= this sucks when everybody is playing ball and i gotta stay at home having so many plasters on my feet..=.= today i practically got pissed off and warned keith to fuck off..i was totally raged by his punching, darts and self confidence over everything.. i just want to smack his face which i'm trying hard NOT TO -.- waaaaaa i very shag la over handling the team's logistics and stuff..really hope this team can make it through and start winning..argh..

Human nature, or is it just me who has a big big problem? When i was chiong suaing in the past, i used to shun it, hated it, wanted long breaks..now this break is coming non stop and i'm starting to get tired with it. Or shd i say can I QUICKLY ORD?!.. maybe its the half dangling situation thats causing all these thoughts.

Now i''m sent to neesoon, doing admin..whether to stay in or nt is up to my choice but i still feel very sian cause far say nt far..close say nt close..sembawang..wa lau..everyday still need wake up at 6..then go home at 5 30..hahas when i get home i have no idea what should i do, seems like staying in also have nothing much to do. My legs are hurting each time i play ball now, they'd swell up! OUCH.. thx to physio my shoulder and back are getting better ^^.

I thrive to be in a team..playing ball non stop against better players, where can i find a team? i"m a  free agent in jammers LOL WAD THE..i didn't even enrol myself into this league..-_- nvm hahaa just wondering if i should go..its a wed..super sian one =.=

I just hope i'll be doing service work while collecting combat pay in a near by camp..everyday can go home early :D dats gonna be great..hahas, now dis weird weird time table gonna make me go nuts..which reminds me..what's my goal in life..i have no idea...wa lau didn't know nus so competitive..rofl need to bid for exposure courses..gosh..=.= seeing my friends like shang gg back to camp even on a public hols makes me feel more sian of ns life.. friends who're in ocs gg to brunei or shd i say went already..thats totally so hardcore..SIGH.. and..wa lau...at least let me become 175cm or smt la..i am only mere 167cm..TOTALLY CANNOT -_-!!!

lol..here i was running on the threadmill hitting my 4th km and then the call came, machine jerked SHIT I flew out -.-..i totally twitched my left knee, limping non stop..anyways the call was from prc..telling me to report to..NEE SOON MEDICAL TRAINING INSTITUTE..LOL..shit..i wonder wad it'll be like..nee soon where the hell is it even at man o.o sounds ulu and far..hopefully i get to become service medic -.-" combat sounds hardcore O.O